My friends that are far away I miss most of all, just like Dorothy said she'd miss the Lion most of all at the end of the Wizard of Oz. I get to hear about their lives through Facebook and the occasional phone call (which is tricky when you live in places like Singapore and have no sense of the time difference...), and that's how they keep up with me. None of them have seen me do drag, which kind of sucks because it has become such a huge part of my life now. I don't get to be close to their kids, which I know I would be if I were closer.
Holidays are always kind of sketchy for me. I never know how they're going to turn out. If I'm single, I generally spend them alone, which kind of sucks. I remember the Christmas in Tucson I spent in my tiny one bedroom apartment, eating a hot pocket and watching John Carpenter's "The Fog." (The original of couse.) I'm one of those people who believe no one should be alone on important days. If I'm not single, the state of my relationship has a lot to do with how things go. Last year, it wasn't so fun. This year is decidedly better. Yes, I'm sharing my partner with her kids, etc, but it's ok. Actually, it's more like she's sharing them with me. It's still a far cry from last year.
So I hope that this holiday is "better" for all of you, whatever that means. Whether it's happier, more fulfilling, surrounded by more of those you love, whatever... Not being particularly religious, Christmas means little when it comes to the supposed "reason for the season," however the old "peace on earth and good will towards men" sentiment sits well with me. Whatever YOUR reason for the season, I hope it's a happy one.
2011 is right around the corner! Hold on to your horses! :)
Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!